I’m not sure when I became a crossfitter. I wish I could pinpoint the exact moment, because it still amazes me that I even identify as a “crossfitter.” I’ve been a completely non-athletic person for nearly my entire life (at least since high school) and working out was always something to avoid at all cost. I always thought that exercising sucked, because it’s hard, and I’m kindof lazy. Sitting down is SO MUCH EASIER than exercising. Lying down is even easier than sitting! I am fantastic at talking myself out of a workout.
10 Reasons Why I Hate Working Out:
1. Sweating is gross.
2. I turn purple like an eggplant when I try to exercise.
3. I hate being hot.
4. Being sore is the worst.
5. Running makes me feel like I am LITERALLY dying.
6. Everyone else is usually faster/stronger/more in shape/better than me.
7. Tight workout clothes sometimes make me feel fat.
8. My lungs sound like a dying moose during cardio, because cardio makes breathing super hard.
9. SWEATING IS GROSS.
10. So. Much. Laundry. So. Many. Showers.
On January 3rd of this year, I went to my first crossfit class. I was terrified. I was prepared to talk myself out of it until the minute I walked in the door, convinced I was too weak to do any of the movements, and fully ready to say “I told you so” to myself at the end of the class and never go to another one. It was hard – even the super scaled down versions of the movements had me gasping for air – but I made it all the way through! At the end of the WOD (workout of the day), I realized that I hadn’t died (this was actually something I was afraid of), I hadn’t thrown up, and I hadn’t passed out. Just the fact that I made it through was amazing to me. The crossfit gym I attend, SPSC Crossfit, has a free WOD on Saturday mornings that anyone can attend. So I decided to try it again the next week.
The next week I didn’t die again (incredible!), and signed up for a free week-long trial. I just knew that by the end of that week I would quit and never come back. Somehow I made it through, and then hesitantly joined for one month of crossfit. I was adamant that I shouldn’t be put on the month-to-month payment plan, because there was NO WAY I was going to keep it up past a month! By the third week, I stopped resisting and gave in to the monthly auto-debit.
Even though I committed to crossfit after a few weeks, it still wasn’t part of my identity. I still didn’t like working out, and I was convinced that would never change. I’m not sure when that mindset began to shift. Maybe it was the first workout about a month or two ago that I killed at instead of being the last person to finish. Maybe it was the nonstop encouragement from my coaches and my WOD partners, no matter slow I was going. Maybe it was discovering that I have an actual muscle in my arm (I’ve never had one there before!). Maybe it was discovering every time I finished a hard workout that I hadn’t died, hadn’t passed out, hadn’t thrown up – my body could handle what I was doing to it and getting stronger every day. Maybe it was that particularly stressful few weeks where I couldn’t wait to take out my frustrations from the day on a workout. Maybe it was realizing that I work out because I love my body, not because I hate it.
Crossfit is a community of people who’ve decided that “easy” will no longer suffice. Every day, every workout is a chance to get a little stronger, to push yourself a little farther, and to not let your fears dictate what you can and cannot do with your body. I’m not sure when it happened, but somehow I’m a crossfitter now. And I couldn’t be more proud.
10 Reasons Why I Love Working Out:
1. It’s a major stress reliever. MAJOR.
2. I get to buy fun new workout clothes! Shopping, anyone?
3. I have muscles. Real, actual, fo’ real muscles on my body. I’m not letting those get away!
4. I can eat more food. Food is the best.
5. I sleep better.
6. The crossfit peeps at my gym are the coolest, most supportive people I know. They don’t let me give up and they’re my biggest cheering squad.
7. Measuring progress is easy, and I can actually see how much my body and mindset has changed.
8. I can carry my own groceries and open my own pickle jars. I don’t have to ask people for help, because I’m not ridiculously weak anymore.
9. My clothes fit better.
10. I have more self-confidence. I know what my body can do, and I’m proud as heck of that.
Sweating is still gross. But now I know sweating is worth it. This girl can, and so can you.